I BLEED.

I bleed today,

I miss her.

When she smiled I melted,

When she laughed I overjoyed.

When she cussed I reacted...

Leaving her alone to calm down

and bring light back to the atmosphere all round,

Her charm quelled consternation

through the accent in her voice.

I bleed today,

I miss her.

The talks we'd have when she phoned,

Her wisdom whispered loud so bold,

The look of happiness when greeting me,

Made me feel like a mountain, like an eagle

flying free.

My mind flickers back and forth,

My heart slips into coldness sometimes as it retorts,

And the emptiness brings emotional war,

As enforced acceptance unprepared is hard and raw.

Never thought I'd be this way,

but I need her.

Never felt the need before except wanting the best

for her (in life), and more.

I bleed today,

I miss her.

No cover-ups to shield the pain,

No working all hours god sends to get through...

and blocking off, by running away,

No philosophizing that time's a healer and scars can mend

or taking a holiday,

Just simply the truth, my heart can't enthuse, because

I bleed today,

I miss her.